I’ve given so much thought to the arrangement of my feelings. Its tough sometimes for us to understand the needs of another person when the time isn’t being spent. I just wonder sometimes am I supposed to be completely honest with my feelings when I am in common conversation with people? I am getting more overwhelmed the further I go into my awakening. I am absorbing so much negative energy from others sometimes, and its not that I seek it. I do nice things for people and I think its more of a self-damaging behavior because I get mad when the person doesn’t reciprocate my kindness in some way that I think is fair, I go off on a tangent protecting my energy and passion from vampires who seek me. They are wanting suck all the energy out of me. I want to understand the gravity of how I feel, but have you ever seen those women that cry when a man proposes to them? I mean real, honest happy tears. My happy tears come from the joy I have in my heart because I am free. I can do all the things that I love to do and enjoy that I can do them without having to explain to anyone why I am doing something.
Growing up I think my mother misunderstood what it meant for someone to actually be emotionally helpful. Emotions are so important and its even more important to validate another persons feelings. I don’t like when my feelings are disregarded for no reason, so I try to not disregard another persons feelings unless there’s a good reason.
That feeling is amazing.